A Tomato A Day, Makes the Doctor Stay Away

Actually, a tomato a day makes the doctor happy! Gotta keep up with my potassium to stay out of the hospital, so thanks to my Dad, the Tomato King, I am partaking everyday! And my oh my, can I say....DeLish! I sure am going to miss these suckers when Im stuck in the hospital.

So August 2nd, I saw Dr. Vorovich and she was overall pretty happy with how I am doing. There is one other girl in NW right now with my same body frame and blood type, and she is much sicker so she needs a heart first...Then it should be my turn to wait. Meantime, Ed and I met a friend and his wife up in Wisconsin over the weekend and he is being admitted into NW on Thursday to wait for his first heart. He was also born with a congenital heart defect and just got married. They are expecting a baby in the middle of November and he really wants to be there for her birth. Please send them some prayers!

As for me, I have been feeling really shitty. I'm taking a lot of naps and all around just exhausted. I also have been struggling with all the emotions of starting out in a new hospital, not trusting them, and not wanting to die. Maybe I'm being over dramatic, but I am just really scared this time around. I have everything to lose! I have a great life, an amazing family, wonderful husband and great dog and really don't want to miss out on this beautiful life! I'm tired of feeling like shit, and feel like a burden to my family but I know I need to do this transplant to get healthy again! But I just really don't want to! I guess its my fear of the unknown and the new hospital that is holding me back. Do they have the right care? will they notice me struggle, if I struggle? Will they treat me like a number or the special Amy that I am? I just don't see the fight in this right now..I have to get there! I have to get my fight back. Imagine! I'm singing "I'm bringing my fight back". Thanks Justin Timberlake...Thanks Dory, "Keep on swimming, keep on swimming."